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BIRTHDAY shopping spree!!

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 02:39:04 GMT

I m exhausted.

1 yr worth of bath supplies
1 down winter jacket
2 sweaters
2 christmas presents
earmuffs
2 skirts
2 shirts
5 dresses
a lil smth from Victoria Secret
1 purse + 2 coach purse later...

equals $700 later....

warning sign

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 02:31:40 GMT

so.... been gaining weight.... nothing to freak out at yet.

I will only freak out if my clothes stop fitting just because THAT IS A LOT OF MONEY.

like this past weekend...God knows how much I spent at the mall cause I sure was not keeping track
I believe i bought 8 dresses in one go... and the weekend before i bought at least 2.... and the week before that another 2.... so that puts me at 12 dresses this month. maybe steven knows how much money i spent but I DOUBT IT! but how can one resist? just when the economy is going down hill my financial situation is improving by the month!

ANYWHO i hope you get the point that if i get that big it will be a lot of money wasted in clothing to replenish my stock.

ASIDE from dress shopping I also went bra shopping. AND OMG I have gained so much weight that....... MY BRA SIZE HAS WENT UP... *sigh* i do now know if i should jump for joy or frown....

and that gets me wondering. For my bra size usually you get a pretty good cleavage. Not that i don't have one... I just don't have that squish you boobs together so there is a line kind of cleavage... and so upon realizing that my bra size has went up..... I wonder if I should work out to slim down again.. or get fat and get bigger boobs.

it is not a contest.

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 02:54:46 GMT

dear person.

it is not a contest.
it is not a contest of life to be the most successful.
it is not a contest amongst friends to be most liked.
it is not a contest of mind to be most fit.
it is not a contest of intelligence to be most read.
it is not a contest of endurance to be most useful.
it is not a contest of anything except a contest with yourself

today, i will become smarter then yesterday.
and tomorrow i will something i am not today.

but to throw your life into a contest of besting other people is not only a sign of insecurity, it is preventing you from reaching your potential.

one should not compare to others but to self.
one should want to improve from within.
if i become better then someone else, should i stop and admire myself?
if i become better then myself yesterday, i know my journey will never end.

I want it the most

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 01:59:59 GMT

watching reality tv shows often remind me why I think the general public is stupid.

Don't get me wrong, I consider myself not entirely intelligent because if I am I would be wildly successful and incredibly rich and unfortunately I am neither. Which brings me to this point...... wait for it.....

"I want it the most (in this competition) and therefore I am going to win (be America's Next Top Model / Be the next American Idol / I am going to win Survivor and get 1 million dollars)"

REALLY?!?!

by that logic addicted gamblers will all become multimillionaires and perverts will get all the sexy they want.

If everyone gets what they want well.... we would all be dead. Because apparently we are all in heaven. because apparently wanting it the most gives you a FREE PASS to what you want. HURRAY.

I HAVE DISCOVERED THE CHEAT IN THE GAME OF LIFE AND I WILL PROCEED TO ACTIVATE THIS "WANT IT THE MOST" TO EVERYTHING, LEVEL UP LIKE MAD AND KICK ALL YOUR ASSES!!!!!

take that b*tches!!!!!!!!
I win.

the beauty dilemma

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 02:21:48 GMT

I think we are too caught up in beauty.

I am sick of those dove commericals about girls being under pressure to look beautiful.
The whole "I promise to think of myself as a beautiful person" crap.
HONESTLY?!?!?!?!? what about I promise to think of myself as a SMART person. What about I promise to try my best to become a SUCCESSFUL person. what about I promise to try my best to be a GENEROUS person. or a HAPPY person. or a CARING person or a FORGIVING person.

The idea that being beautiful and that automatically creates a good self image is preposterous. Beauty is harding the defining factor. And if it is, it hardly lasts very long. Don't get me wrong, I am a strong believer of inner beauty but unfortunately I don't believe focusing on beauty in any form makes you a beautiful person.

for example. If I am nice because I want to seem nice to you. Because I have something to gain from it. Am I really nice or am I just an asshole? On the other hand if I am nice because I want only to be nice. Am I nicer or more beautiful for it? or is it really the same? Personally I cannot answer those questions. I only know there is something seriously wrong if my daughter's only goal is to think of herself as beautiful.

Can you smell DIVA much?

We create this self importance / self accomplishment thing around our whole lives. It begins with wanting ourselves to be better, wanting our kids to be better. Every parent wants their kids to be smart, straight A, athletic, beautiful, etc. but do we really need to be all of the above? We assume that if we ourselves have a good self image then confidence, respect and maybe success will just come naturally. But honestly does it really??

Do we pin our self image too much on beauty? Can we not be happy with our intelligence? with our skills? with our grace to be satisfied? Or will we HAVE to be aesthetically pleasing to be the whole package?

And slowly we create this world where we convince ourselves that we are beautiful. And anyone who disagrees with us are our enemy. Those enemies victimise us. Those enemies abuse us verbally, they abuse us emotionally. And as we overcome those abuse we become more beautiful because we overcome obstacles in our lives.

But honestly. If you weren't so engrossed about your image in the first place what do they have to victimise you with? You create your own downfall in allowing your image to be a weapon held against yourselves.

And then it goes back to defining your self image on something OUTSIDE OF beauty. If I based my self image and self love entirely on my ability to decifer riddles. Then no amount of abuse can rock me from my image due to my ability to support my self image WITH FACT. I can solve riddles and I can prove it. But can I prove I am beautiful?

To base your self image on such a fickle lover as beauty, you only set yourself up for MAJOR FAILURE. I can almost say it is your own fault for becoming a victim, and honestly, you abuse yourself.

Most hated things - TODAY

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 16:53:54 GMT

1. BO
2. People who ask me for money
3. People who leave multiple messages about THE SAME THING.

1. Girls and boys, BO is NASTY. I know it is only natural to smell a little when the weather is warm. But honestly, its called Deodorant. If I am at arms length and all I can smell is your sour BO, I WANT TO THROW UP. Sometimes it's ok to smell. like if you just ran a marathon. and sometimes its not ok to smell like if you were only outside for 10 mins waiting for the bus and I can already smell you bo. Please stay clean. Scents are one of the strongest impressions.

2. HONESTLY?!?!? this lady comes up to me in the parking lot giving me a card saying that she is a single mother with 2 children. and you are standing in the parking lot asking me for money? first of all why are you a single mother?? what choices have you made that brought you to this point in your life? Is your husband dead? I doubt it. Secondly why are you asking me for money and not looking for work? Some people can say maybe she can't find any work. Well KEEP LOOKING. Thirdly walking around in a parking lot hardly seems effective to me. I am sure there are agencies out there that can help you a lot better then my $5 will. And if you really are a single mother, you would be looking THAT MUCH HARDER for those type of help instead of my tyle.

3. I AM NOT HERE. Calling me over and over and over and over and leaving me 8 messages with your name and phone # only makes it so I DON'T WANT TO CALL YOU. In fact I purposely call everyone else on my list before I call this idiot. All I need is 1 message. Other people are not at your disposal. STOP CALLING ME.

the pantie muffins

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 16:54:44 GMT

So a couple of weeks ago I was shopping with Stephen. Nothing really out of the ordinary considering we go shopping probably 3 out of 4 weeks on the weekend. When we walked by La Senza, I noticed that on display they placed panties into a little muffin paper wrap thing. I thought it was so cute and decided to do that to all my underwear.

The end result is actually quite interesting. Now I no longer have to dig through my drawer to identify one type from the next. I can clearly see all the colours that are available and in the future when purchasing I can make a mental note of what additional colours/style ETC. I can clearly keep inventory in case someone decides to steal my undies or note when it is time to do laundry. Additionally it makes my drawer look very very very neat.

On another note I would like to share a couple of my favourite online stores to do shopping.

1. Victoria Secret. VS actually has a very large collection of clothing available all in different price ranges. Not only clothing but shoes as well. It is my one of my favourite destinations for online shopping / browsing.

2. MaxStudio.com. I visited one of their stores in Florida and afterwards became a big fan. Their clothing is very stylish and though not specifically designer brand gives that unique feel.

3. Bluefly. Though I have yet to actually purchase anything on their website it is still one of my most frequented destinations just to look and dream of all the handbags I might own one day

4. Aldo my favourite shoe store of all time, affordable stylish replaceable shoes that are definitely stylish. Online they accept pay pal payment AND their clearance section is TO DIE FOR. Also they have a very large selection of assesories.

5. Great Glam. AWESOME clubbing clothes. I think I am already getting a little too old for their clothing. Simply because I rarely go clubbing or barhop anymore. However if you are still enjoying those years of your life or have a killer bod. DEFINATELY visit this site. Their clothes are a steal! Awesome cleaveage / sexy/ revealing factors. Your clubbing wardrobe would not be complete without a few pieces from this site.

tv shows

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 02:32:23 GMT

I just spent the last 30 mins trying to come up with a feasible tv time table for me and steven to watch all our tvshows..... BUT ITS NOT POSSIBLE!! we are so old all we do is watch tv together and now in total we have over 10 tvshows we follow......

i am sleepy

new computer

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 03:15:02 GMT

I got a NEW COMPUTER!

VERY HAPPY

so much faster

just stuff in general

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 02:33:13 GMT

hi.
time to rant.

SO... I was reading Entertainment Weekly at work (What else do i do at work? well.. i also read instyle and reader's digest) and they had Ryan Reynolds on the cover. CAN YOU SAY HAWT?!?!?!?!!?! I love a man that doesn't take himself too seriously. There is something very sexy about it I don't know why.... but anyways apparently he does not play video games. here i did a double take, stood up and i said "WHAT?!?!?!?!" right there at work. in fact these old people started looking at me like i am crazy. Apparently he thinks they are a waste of time.

Video games are not a waste of time.
Here wait, I take that back, MOST video games are a waste of time but SOME video games are not.

Its like curling up with a good book, curling up with a good video game is just as good. I do not have to be a literary major to be able to read a classic and appreciate the beautiful poetry, imagery and imagination of a great thinker or maybe just someone other then myself to get a fresh perspective. Good video games have those classic archetypical story that one finds inspiring and moving. Of course in this I speak of RPGs. But unlike movies and tv shows, RPG video games are a medium to express and fully illustrate another world and stories that does not have to fit neatly in a 1 to 3 hrs time frame. So much like books. In fact, I would say to anyone who genuinely enjoy reading to pick up a classic game like chrono trigger, a final fantasy, and play it through. You might find it just a little tooo enjoyable.

But just like trashy gossip magazines, video games have the same trashy online internet version games that act the same.

OTHER STUFF

There is this guy I HAD A HUGE CRUSH ON back in elementary and highschool. HI. I would like to say HI. and to tell you that if you had made a move on me in highschool. I WOULD'VE JUMPED YOU! hi. but i am afraid that it will no longer happen. Thanks for ignoring me infront of your friends at school but secretly talking to me a lot online. hi. I hope life is treating you well. Hi. I would like to show you what you missed out on. Hi.

now.. bye.

ANYWHO I am kind of tan from cruise vacation.
and i think i didn't look that flattering in my bathing suit pictures.

hopefully I will work out sometime soon.
as soon as i get better because I have the flu right now.